| MOVED!!! |
[25 Sep 2008|04:54pm] |
Hey guys and gals.
I'm really sorry for not being around in the past while and I hope you can all forgive me.
I have moved my blog to http://theninjabear.livejournal.com/ where I decided to take it much more seriously this time, so please redirected you friend requests there!!!
Let me know how you are all doing on the first post of that journal, as I probably won't be reading them if you post them here!
I'm really sorry for the big inconvience.
Big Hugs!!!
Miss you all lots, and hope that you will have time to add me to your friends list and share other great discussions once again :)
Take Care
NinjaBear
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| NinjaBear on Ebay! |
[22 Oct 2007|07:00am] |
I have been told to try it out, and I finally got down to it! One of my pictures from the first bundle is up on eBay for a much cheaper price then it is already listed! If you would like to check it out, follow the link here!
I'm pretty excited about it, even though I do not have the highest of expectations. *Keeping Fingers Crossed*
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| Finally organised |
[19 Oct 2007|02:16am] |
I have been holding back on returning to LJ for so long. I missed my friends on here, and I do need to keep a blog of my life. I mean, i have one for my art and for my porn, why don't I update the one which i actually NEED to update! Haha!
Not much stuff going on really. Michael is out of town for the weekend, so I'm alone until Monday morning. I am kind of freaked out for being alone in Canada for more then a day ... I mean, I'm not that much of a wuss, but i don't know how to get around and so on yet, so ... you know ... I also forgot to mentioned that i came out to my parents a while ago ... kinda weird how it turned out, but it's all good now. I guess they got used to the idea at the end of the day. My mum took it the worse. She said that it was her fault that I was gay .... meh ... anyways .... Moving on ... I also had to close down my online stores today ... also sad, but I wasn't really devastated about it. I was loosing more then I was cashing in! Grrrr >.< BUT, I am now selling my art!!! Original pieces of art, sold at my Art Blog. if you're interested, please have a look !!! Here are a couple of pictures!   If you are in any way interested, check the page out, leave me a shot, anything you want!!! NINJABEAR BLOG |
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| Just checking in. |
[16 Sep 2007|01:52am] |
I just wanted to leave a message and let you know I'm ok. Nothing major going on, except for lots of drawing and planning with regard to my moving, which is why i was too busy to post on my own journal, even though I -am- keeping up to date with my communities :D I made some art for my friends ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) imondo and ghosthuntercub which I will paste at the bottom of this post.
Anyways, enjoy the works and lemme know what you think!
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[02 Sep 2007|07:18pm] |
My turn to take something back from jleviknapp :P :D and I'm glad I did!!!! Look at the result!!!
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| More Quizzes! |
[01 Sep 2007|07:28pm] |
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This is so me! :P
You prefer Romantic sex!
You like romantic sex. For you, it's not all too much about being horny - it's more an expression of how you feel about your partner(s). It's an experience that you can share -- that you can experience and enjoy together.
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'What is the best type of sex for you?' at QuizUniverse.com
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| Sorry ... I just had to copy this ! |
[01 Sep 2007|06:37pm] |
YOUR REAL NAME:
Gilles Johnathan Mario Bone
YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 4 letters of real name plus izzle.)
Gillizzle
YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Turquoise Panda (can this sound more gay?)
YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (your middle name and street you live on)
Johnathan Galata
YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name.)
Bongi (The Heroine Addict?)
YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Purple Malibu (The Gay Superhero)
YOUR ARABIC NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of you dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, and last letter of your moms middle name)
Inji (Uhmm ... I don't have the rest of the letters, no siblings and I have no idea what my mum and dad's middle names are >.> )
YOUR GOTH NAME: (Black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Jinto (I don't have a pet but I put in the name of my panda soft toy since he's my favourite plushie!!!)
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| Changes |
[01 Sep 2007|06:29pm] |
Guess what?!
... I am sort of back on LJ but NOT back home. These last two weeks, as you all know, I was visiting my pup in Canada, and really, it was a BLAST. It was so nice that it broke my heart at the thought of leaving. On my last day here, we started going around art galleries and whatnots and figured how much potential I had over here and what opportunities I had given enough time to explore more, and so, with great courage, I missed my flight and decided to stay for a while!
I don't know how long I will be staying, but I just wanted to let everyone know that everything's great with me! The two weeks were FANTASTIC! I am in the company of the sweetest men ever (both my guy and his great roomie) and ... what can I say ... I'm enjoying every second of it!
In the meantime, how have you all bee doing?!
Update me please!!!
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| Goodbye for now *waves* |
[16 Aug 2007|04:44am] |
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Hey LJ I’m sorry it has taken me a while to return here after my last message. A lot has been going on here at home, a lot of stuff regarding various things, which kind of held me back a bit from my usual activities. On the good side, I can happily say, I wasn’t bored and I was busy :P AT home things are getting stranger and stranger with my folks. I have no idea if they hate each other or not at this point, but what I do know is that I am the last knot that is keeping them together. On that note, I am sure that once I leave, there will be some more chaos going on like last April, yet when I look at it now, I understand that they are two different people with, unfortunately, two separate lives and ideas now, and since I love them both so much, even though I don’t show it often enough, I want both of them to be happy with their lives, and if they think that once I leave they should go their separate ways to make their lives better, then so be it. I love both my mommy and my pappy, but constant war is never nice. Something positive which happened recently, is that last Saturday, me and my man from Canada, decided that we just HAD to meet, no matter what, and in fact, I am typing right now, only 2 hours away from my departure to Canada. It’s going to prove itself to be quite the experience for me. I will be taking a flight from here to London (Gatwick) and then another flight from there to his town. And there I’ll meet him, the man who could be my first official partner … It’ still kind of weird to me, considering that in 20 years I have never been in a relationship, and I have to admit, from what I’ve seen, it’s tough, yet through all the hardships we’ve already beet through while trying to get to meet, it’s so fulfilling to know that neither one of us gave up on it, and we tried hard enough to defy all odds and manage this. I’ll be spending the next two weeks there, so during that time, I won’t be able to visit you folks, but once I am back, I wanna hear about each and every one of you, how you’ve been, and what’s been going on, and of course, I’ll have a couple of photos to share and some stories too! Thank you guys for all the support you’ve showed me thus far, and for being there for me when I needed someone to chat with. (You know whom you are you two :P) I’ll be going now as I need to hit the shower then go to the airport. Till next time, take care of yourselves, and hugs to all!
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| MUST SEE VIDEO |
[22 Jul 2007|08:19pm] |
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The first time I saw this, a couple of years back, I cried.
I saw it again today, after around 3 years maybe, and I still got that knot in my throat ... I love the tune of the song.
I even have the lyrics translated, but the video alone is fantastic. I thought I'd share it with you fellas.
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| *Remembering* |
[22 Jul 2007|08:04pm] |
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A couple of months ago ...
Him: "Hey, how are you doing?"
Me: "...."
Him: "Great ... wasting my breathe again eh?"
Me: "...."
Him: "Well if you want to linger to music and lyrics, I've got a song for you ..."
*He puts in a CD and changes to a particular track."
Him: "My song to you ... "
*He walks out of the room and the song plays.*
I'm not feeling so sad anymore. I'm trying to deal with it in my own way as I always do. yet today I accidentally put this song on, and it brought back memories of him ...
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| *Shivers* How I Feel ... |
[21 Jul 2007|11:32am] |
"Did you just waste your breathe, asking me, how I feel today? Do you really wanna know?"
There are days in our lives when we feel lost, helplessly drowning in our thoughts and fears, trying hard to turn our backs on that emptiness, and the more we try to grab onto memories and facts which would lift us up, cheer our moods, the more we end up remembering and recalling the fact that, no matter what happened in the past, no matter what we’ve been through, no matter how many we people love and hold close to out hearts, some time or another, we are and will be, alone. Embracing yourself, letting your hands wrap around your shoulders as you cuddle yourself and look ahead, into that same emptiness, into the void which reflects the abyss in your heart, the darkness all around you. Sometimes it’s scary, how one second can turn into hours, how slow the clock hanging on our wall, or the watches on our wrist can go, when you’re lost in a place between time and space, when you’re floating, falling, into your own thoughts, into your own fears, feeling forgotten, feeling left behind by the people, by the events that seem to just pass by you. Sometimes it’s scary to recognise the fact that you seem to be the only one feeling this way, that others around you don’t seem to shatter so easily, and it’s either them that do not care, or it’s you who just tries too hard, and slowly but surely, you start convincing yourself that whatever it is, it definitely has to be something wrong with you. But, why you? Why Me? I guess we all feel this way some time or another, we all feel the chills of loneliness, of looking ahead and feeling that everything has turned its back on us. Some of us disguise this fear by waving the flag of their independence from others, yet no man in an island, every heart needs another. Stupid, yes stupid, just another stupid excuse. Lies, all lies. Being alone doesn’t make your strong. It makes you decompose, drains you and drowns you in an eternal silence. Lies, all lies. Lies induced by the fear, the fear of begin alone, the fear of being … like me.
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| *sigh* |
[21 Jul 2007|11:09am] |
| Your Personality is Very Rare (ENFJ) | 
Your personality type is dramatic, expressive, proud, and demanding.
Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 5% of all women and 2% of all men
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging. |
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| Music PIMPAGE - 01 - Il Divo |
[17 Jul 2007|03:16pm] |
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I've been practicing my singing for 10 years now, and these folks really have everything I would desire to achieve with my training. Not only they look friken HOT *drools over Carlos* but their voice is fantastic!
My all-time favorite Il Divo songs include :-
- All By Myself
- Unchained Melody
- Caruso
- A Mia Maniera - Tribute to Frank Sinatra
- I Believe In You - Feat. Celine Dion
And here's a preview!!
Dear god ... Carlos (the guy in the black shirt) is .... so beyond my wildest dreams >.< ! *recomposes himself* AND we sing in the same pitch me and him! :D
They are truly amazing. More music pimpage coming soon!
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| Evolution ... |
[16 Jul 2007|02:59am] |
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6. 6 times I rewrote this paragraph in my head before actually manage to put it down into words, and as I write this down, I think to myself, how hard can this really be? I’m not writing the introduction to a book, or composing an important speech which has the necessity to bring world peace. It’s not that relevant, yet it is somehow relevant to me. Today was a very special day, and here I explain why … For the past years, me and my family had a very strange understanding of one another. To them, I have always been the boy who stays in his chair quietly during family meetings, does not interact when talking about cars or racing, does not care for soccer, and is able to continue a decent conversation with about. I am, to them, the 20, almost 21 year old, male, whom they do not understand to any point whatsoever. Indeed, the 21 year old boy who likes musicals, and art, and singing, does not entertain his rich family with a fetish for posh sports cars and women with sizzling bodies. And up to this day, to some level or another, it bothered me. One might say that the reason is obvious, yet what might not be obvious is that I adore these people, even though the only thing I ever will share with them is the blood in my veins. I love them with all my heart and soul. I admire their passions and their tastes, yet somehow, I am to them, the “different one whom we do not know how to tackle”. I stand there and smile, as they walk by, nod, try to fake a smile, and move on. Occasionally, they ask me “so, you don’t follow racing right?” just to make sure if I evolved into one of them, of I was still the odd one out. And as I’d shake my head, their lips take the shape of that of a young by after tasting medicine, then look away and talk to someone else. Now the plot thickens when a few months ago, my younger cousin started cart racing, and indeed, he truly does have talent to sell. Not only is he not one of the best cart drivers from age 15 to 35 on our island, but my uncle intends to send him to some school in Germany at the end of his secondary education. Needless to say, all the family rejoiced at this. Everyone took interest in what he did, what he loves, how good he driving skills are and how his phenomenal time trails shock everyone on the track. Yes, indeed, I am not only the soon-to-be 21 year old loner of the family, I am also jealous of my younger cousin. My own father, whom never attended to any of my concerts, SIGHS when I practice my music, yet exalts at the mention of this boy’s name! Why would a complete stranger enjoy my singing, while my old man can’t stand listening to my 1 hour practice? Can’t he FAKE being happy for me? Can’t he TRY to at least nod when I show him one of my new artworks? Can’t he NOT look so ashamed that I am not the “hot stud surrounded by chicks driving a fancy sports car”, like he wanted me to be? Yet today … Today we had another family meeting, and my family, as usual, started going on and on about my cousin’s new track times. It was rather astounding, I have to be honest, and I am indeed very happy for him. He deserves it after all the hard work he is putting into it. At some point, my uncle announced that he had bought a new cart for his son. Everyone moved to the garage, and there was the “unveiling”, where everyone awed in amazement. My uncle explained the specs of the car, and how he loved the design, and how he did this, and how he did that, and how he was going to do this and that in the future, while my cousin stood with his hands crossed smiling, leaning against the wall. I turned to him and I said “Nice cart.” He smiled. “Do you like it?” I continued. He smiled, nodded and then ended with a shrug. At first I didn’t understand, yet later, the conversation moved on and on about how my uncles and my very own father, would be pleased if my cousin were to make certain particular accomplishments, and how they are going to push him into working on some particular tracks, and how all of it was their dream which he was fulfilling and they didn’t give a damn about his opinion, yet just wanted it done. Well maybe that’s not the wording they used, but that’s what my cousin and I were getting. For once, I found myself watching events unfold with no control, which did not involve me. I felt troubled by it, in my cousin’s stead, yet he, on the other hand, smiled and smiled. That’s where I learnt it all. I looked at him and asked, “Doesn’t all this bother you?” He arched an eyebrow, not understanding, and finally laughed it off and said, “Oh, don’t worry, I still get to do the driving, and that’s what I like.” And he was right. No matter how many times I am misjudged and misread, I still come back to the same things, still live in my own world of music and art, and I don’t really need anyone to understand it. Needless to say it would be grand to find a significant other which can relate, yet in the very end, as long as you get to be, who you want to be, and enjoy it, there is no need to look for acceptance, you just have to accept yourself. It is indeed something I have struggled with for many years. I always did things so others might like them, seeing good comments and approval, and loosing from enjoying myself in the process. Maybe, this soon-to-be 21 year old has made one more step towards maturity. Indeed, a day to be remembered, when the young reminds the old how to live his life with peace at heart. I’m very grateful for it. I feel at rest … thanks young cuz.
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| Bingo once again |
[14 Jul 2007|02:19am] |
And here;s yet another online test which describes me perfectly . Seriously, if you do answer these tests in pure honesty, they most of the time get it right.
So here it goes !
| You Are An INFP | 
The Idealist
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards.
You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings.
At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.
How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak
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What's Your Personality Type?
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[13 Jul 2007|06:27pm] |
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Well this was interesting to say the least!
| Greed: | High
| | | Gluttony: | Medium
| | | Wrath: | Very High
| | | Sloth: | Medium
| | | Envy: | Very High
| | | Lust: | Medium
| | | Pride: | High
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| Ragan |
[13 Jul 2007|05:18am] |
I just had to post this here ...
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